It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to...

Today is my birthday, but it's a bittersweet day for me. My family had a rough week, my grandfather was touch and go all week and he ended up passing yesterday after I got out of work. As much as we'll all miss him dearly, we're just so thankful he's no longer suffering. He was the greatest man I've ever known and am so privileged that he was my grandfather.

H and I with my grandparents on our wedding day

They won the anniversary dance with over 60 years of marriage :)

Yankee game with my dad, grandpa, brother, and H at the new stadium in 2009.

But today is also my birthday. I'm in a very odd spot where everyone around me wants to celebrate my b-day, but I'm just not in a very celebratory mood. My mom is encouraging me to try and make the best of my day anyway. So, H and I are headed to the beach, and then we'll meet up with some friends tonight. 

Tomorrow, our friends are throwing a joint pool party/BBQ for me and one of our other friends whose birthday was yesterday. I was so looking forward to this for the past couple weeks, and now I'm just kind of in a funk. I feel like I shouldn't be partying/celebrating right now. 

But, I can't wait to see my grandma and give her a big hug this weekend once we get up to Connecticut.